Chesney

She changes everyday! I finally remembered the camera and here are some new pics! She looks more and more like her daddy everyday!

They took her off of the lights again today, hopefully for good. They lost her pick line and could not get another one started. They did get an IV in her leg and are praying that it stays good for a couple days til they can get another pick line started. I pray that they can get a good one. Since she is not eating the only way for her to stay hydrated in thru her IV, she depends on it.

Other then that everything looks good. She is still on the antibiotics for 3 more days, can't wait for that to be over I think they are pretty strong.

She seems to be sleeping well but she also has her moments of getting mad. Which we like to see.

We still have not got to hold her and that is so hard. We know it is for her own good but it is killing us. Can't wait til she starts bottle feeding and we can hold her for that. Sure it will be a while but something to look forward too.

The doctor said today that when she does get to start feedings it is gonna be a predigested type of formula, that will be easier on her tummy. She told me she didn't know if she will ever be able to nurse cause she thinks her tiny body can't break down the protein in my milk. This has broken my heart but I know it is best for her. Secretly I have not given up yet :)

Tummy Troubles

Well it has been a long past couple of days! Thursday wehad some phone problems since Matt was out of cell service and I left my phone in the truck while seeing baby Maddox and Shanna. After we got back into the truck I had missed about 20 phone calls, needless to say my phone is glued to my hip now, and I hate every time it rings.

Anyways the doctor was trying to get ahold of us, to tell us that Chesney had something wrong with her digestive system, they think an infection. Something showed up on the x-ray but they didn't really know what it was. So they had to get and IV started and since she has horrible veins they had to have our permission to do a pick line. It is basically and IV that goes in the fold of her arm up her shoulder and around into her chest cavity by her heart. They wanted to do it that way because it would have better chances of staying longer and since she will not be eating for ten days they need a good IV. She looked horrible she was so pale and nothing bugged her and that is not like her. She gets mad just when you open the door to her isolette. But after a couple doses of antibiotics and some rest she looked a whole lot better the next day. She was awake most of the time we were there friday evening it was so hard for her to just stare at us and not be able to hold her.

Today her jaundice is back up and they have put her under the lights again. They said she is having a hard time kicking it because she is not pooping because she is not eating and that is how they get over the jaundice. So hopefully the lights will get it back down!! The doctor said there is still something on the x-ray so they are gonna continue to do morning x-rays. The antibiotics she is on is a 7 day course and we are on day 3 and so far so good. Hope they caught it early enough. I pray they can get it figured out so she can start eating. Good news is she has been off oxygen for 3 days and is doing really good. We left her about noon to come home, it is hard to leave.

We are going back in the morning to see our little princess and I promise to take pics. We were in such a rush thursday that I didn't grab the camera. I can't believe how much she changes every day!

Keeps getting harder and harder

I thought the hardest thing was leaving my baby at the hospital but every day is the hardest thing I have had to do. Matt went back to work yesterday and that was very hard to be at the hospital with out my rock. The doctor mentioned that maybe I should try to stay home for a day and get rest. I could not imagine going one day with out seeing her. I was gonna do it and Matt was gonna go down after work. Well when he left this morning I could just not bear the thought of it so I told him I would pick him up in Henefer when he got off work and we would go together. This has been the longest day ever.

I am gonna try and remember to take more pics of the little one. She changes so much everyday and since they have taken her off the lights it is easier to see her. Yesterday they took her off her IV fluids since her veins are so bad and she is eating so good. We are just praying that she keeps eating good and she will not have to have it put back in.

I pray she is having a good day!

1 week old

Chesney is a week old as of yesterday! That week flew by and I am praying that the next 6-8 fly by also. She had a pretty rough day yesterday. When we got there her little right arm was swollen, it was huge. I guess she was sleeping so good, the nurse said, that she didn't want to bug her. Well her IV went bad and all the fluid gathered in her arm. It was so hard to see that, we don't want her to have to struggle more then she already has too. Well she inherited her mom's bad veins and it took almost 10 nurses and 3 hours to find another vein that would work for her IV. They finally found one in her head and that only lasted a couple of hours. Then they found another one that is still holding out. If she can get her feedings up to 24 cc's she won't have to have her IV anymore, so we are hoping that will come in time. Until then they just keep constant eye on her IV so if it goes bad they are on top of it.

Good news is I called and checked on her this morning and they said she is keeping her saturation up really well and they may take her off the oxygen that is in her nose. I know that is good news but it is also scary to me. I just pray she does well. We want her home so bad, it hurts.

Matt had to go to work today, I can't even imagine how tough that was on him. I know he is strong and always there for me and I am trying to be strong for him.

So tiny!

Matt held Chesney tonight before we headed home and I can not get over how tiny she is. When she is in her isolette you can see my looking at her that she is tiny but it is not until she gets all wrapped up in a blanket and hold her that you realize just how small she is. I still can't get over it!!

Her belliruben went back up to an 8 so they put her back under the lights. I can't wait for her to be over that because she does so much better all around when that is gone. They are still feeding her and not getting any risidual so that is a good sign. They are gonna up her feeding every 6th feeding and just watch her. I hope she keeps doing good so we can plump her up and get her home.

She was bright eyed when we got to hold her this morning.

She even gave us some smiles :)

Her little sunglasses she has to have on when she is under the lights

Chesney just suntanning! But her belliruben has gone down to a 5 so they are gonna take the lights off of her and check it again in the morning. She is still having tummy troubles and they did another x-ray and the doctor is having the radiologist take a look at it.

A few little things

This is mostly for me, so I can look back and remember what Chesney went thru. Today started off pretty rough, she is still having a hard time remembering to breath. Good news is her Belliruben has gone down. They were hoping to get her up to 20 cc's of food and once she reached that they were gonna take her off the IV, which will be good just for the fact that they have to redo her port so often and once in awhile they put it in her head. I just don't know how they can do these things to these tiny babies. I admire them more every day. Bad news is she is not digesting all of her food they are feeding her. She spit up a little bit of green stuff that was left over in her tiny tummy. So they had radiology come and take and x-ray to make sure that it was not outside of her stomach. They said it was just gas. They fed her again this time more slowly and watched to see how she reacted. Again she had the green risidual and ordered another x-ray. Her little tummy is a little swollen but hopefully it is from gas. Her stool looks good with no blood in it so that is a good sign. They are gonna suspend feedings for the rest of the night and just let her tummy rest.

We are staying at a hotel tonight, which I am sure there will be many more nights of. But it does feel better to be just down the road and not an hour away.

Thanks for all the Support

Just wanted to say a little thank you to all the words of inspiration and prayers for our little family. There have been so many people that have helped us thru the last couple of days and it means so much.

I want to say thanks to Nick, my cousin, I don't think I can ever thank him enough for giving a blessing to our little angel. I know that he was in the area for a reason. Him and his wife Kim are always there for us and I don't feel like we are there enough for them. We will make it up to them by letting them watch Chesney when she is being a little turd!! We love you guys!!

To our family for always listening to us when we are feeling scared, or angry, or just need to talk about what she is going thru it makes it easier to let all those feelings out.

I just want to tell Matt how much he means to me!! He has been the strongest person I have ever met and I know it is killing him as much as it is me. But he is being strong for his two girls! I know just like every dad he wanted a little boy to play catch with and take fishing and hunting. And I know that Chesney will be right by his side doing all of those things because she has the best daddy in the world!! Thanks babe for being my everything!! I love you more then you will ever know and more then I can even describe. I know we will make it through this and we grow from it.

Update on Chesney

Chesney's new home. It keeps her warm and safe from all noises that she does not like.

She loves to sleep with her arms and hands by her face just like her mom

Just a little note mostly for me to remember. Chesney's billirubin is pretty high, so she has been placed on a light blanket as well as have lights bars all around her isolet. The billirubin makes her pretty tired and she is having a hard time remembering to breath. It is so hard to watch her go thru these episodes but they say all premies do this and it is perfectly normal. Today was one of those bad days they warned us about and it has been an emotional rollercoster for us.

Another Baby comes to the Robbins Family

Maddox McCray Robbins

Proud Daddy and Grandparents

Handsom little man

Maddox McCray Robbins was born on 8-21-09 in the early morning hours.

He weighed 7 lbs 6 oz and was 20 inches long. After another quick drive, this time by Dusty,

to Ogden he was born after only an hour of pushing. Again no time for an epidural! When these

Robbins' babies decide to come into this world there is no messing around. He is such a perfect little man and I am sure he is gonna be a protector of Chesney. It is so weird to hold him after being with her it makes him feel so big!

The Hardest Thing I Have ever Had to do

Well about 11 this morning they discharged me from the hospital. I never thought I would ever say that I did not want to leave a hospital but I didn't. We are at a loss on what to do living an hour away from where our baby will be the hardest test I think we will have to endure. We are gonna stay at a hotel a couple days and week and prob just drive down the rest of the time.

Chesney is doing really good! They gave her a little bit of caffine in her IV today to remind her to breath. Sometimes I think we all need a little caffine IV, I know I could use some. They let me hold her last night for about fifteen mins, I was in heaven. It is so hard to not be able to touch her and hold her but we know that her getting all the rest and quite time she can is what will help her develop the fastest.

The nurse today asked Matt and I if we had much red in our hair or anyone in the family a red head, because she is the most firery little one she has seen. Chesney definatley is a fighter like her dad and that makes me so proud. She is so strong and helps me to become stronger. It is really hard but I am trying. Yesterday was pretty tough becuase I think the adrealine rush had wore off and reality set it. I know that with Heavenly Fathers help we will get thru this.

A few pics of the little one

A little video of Chesney in the NICU

Angels rush in where others fear to go

As I type this it is still all to sureal still! Well as you read from the last post a year ago, we were trying to have a baby. AND after some medical help we were blessed in Feburary to become pregnant!! I think that it was just barely starting to sink in that we were actually pregnant.


Our little angel decided that she was ready to come into this world and meet her parents! I was only 29 weeks along and she still had 11 weeks before her due date of November 3rd. Still can't imagine that I am writing SHE!! We did not find out what we were going to have we wanted it to be a surprise although we pretty much were convinced it was a boy. WRONG!! I told Matt she was sick of being a called boy so she came out early to show us she was definately not a boy.



I had been having pre term labor for about a week and a half, but of course being my first baby I just thought the misery is what came along with pregnancy. I went down to St. George to visit my mom and have her take care of me. We went to the doctor down there because I was not feeling the baby move much. Well they said everything was fine. When I got home we went to the doctor again and they said everything was ok, just go home, rest and drink lots of water. Well that night I did not sleep at all the contractions were pretty bad. So again we headed to the doctor. He gave me some medication that would stop the labor. Well, I did not get it in time.



Matt left for work yesterday about 6:30, I tried to go back to sleep. About 7:15 my water BROKE! Luckily my mom was still in town I ran downstairs told her it broke and everything after that is pretty much a blur. I called Matt and he ran home, his mom came over and we were on our way. Our Doctor is in Ogden and being as early as she was I am so thankful that we made it here. After a short 35 min drive which usually takes an hour, and contractions every five mins we made it here with twenty mins to spare. We got to the hospital at 8:40 and she Was born at 9:02! They barely had got the IV in and we were delivering. Everything went great!! Matt got a little woosie and had to lay on the floor and have some orange juice.

We are just so greatful for our little girl! Life has totally changed for us and we would not want it any other way. We have never felt a love like this and know nothing will ever change that!!